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[Mar. 16th, 2004|01:31 am] |
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I'd wait forever for an apology that will never come, you know that? It's always my fault. Everything. |
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| My Mom |
[Mar. 14th, 2004|11:43 pm] |
My mom is always so god damned critical of me. I told her I was changing my major to English Writing, and that I wanted to learn more about what technical writing was..."Why do you want to do that? You know nothing about technical writing. It's boring. You wouldn't like it." WHAT THE FUCK? Now I call her and ask her for help with a manuscript I'm writing about my nephew. I plan on giving it to him and so I didn't want it to be all depressing and sad and about how his life has sucked up to this point. I wanted to incorporate good things into it. "I thought this story was supposed to be meaty."
She never has anything good to say about anything I do. It's always critical. Not that I don't want criticism, I need criticism. But Jacob is always like, "I like this, but this part sounds weird." My mom, on the other hand, says, "The beginning isn't very good, and it's not meaty enough. It's supposed to be a harder hitting assignment, isn't it?"
GOD! Be positive for once in your life you fucking wench. Maybe I'd like some praise. Maybe once in awhile it would be nice to hear, "Hey Kate, this is good, but maybe you could work on this." |
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| VAST! |
[Mar. 14th, 2004|05:14 pm] |
I am not going to be able to write at all tonight. VAST released a new album and Jamey and I are freaking trying to download it and Crimson. OMG! I LOVE VAST! *faints*
You are my temptation to....DO WHAT I KNEW WAS WRONG! This reminds me of the concerts in San Francisco and Madison...ugh...the good old days...I can't believe that was four years ago! Four years for new VAST material was too long to wait! I AM SERIOUSLY FREAKING OUT! |
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| Contemplative |
[Mar. 13th, 2004|10:37 pm] |
I've spent a large amount of time over the course of the last year distancing myself from people. Now that I have a lot of free time on my hands, I don't know what to do with it because I don't have anybody to do anything with. It's strange. I'm not feeling sorry for myself. I brought it on myself. I just regret it sometimes.
I miss people like Brauer and Angie. We had that kind of friendship where we could pick up where we left off. It's been over a year since I've spoken to either of them for a long period of time, but I wouldn't feel uncomfortable calling them up and doing something with them. If I were in Milwaukee that is.
But now, instead of having friends and doing things with people, I answer the phone and deliver the message when other people order pizza.
Spring Break in Minneapolis with the North Wind staff was a relief from that. It was kind of a disgusting reminder of what life with friends is like. For 3 days I had friends. Granted, I spent a lot of those 3 days taking care of drunks, but I made friends on that trip. I don't know if it was because they knew they had to deal with me, or if it was because they truly liked me. Probably some of both.
I guess I'm not a people person. Maybe that should be something I work on. I guess I am little too obsessed with making the outside look beautiful that I forgot about making the inside be beautiful - and having people around to enjoy it with.
Cat Stevens just always knows how to put it best:
( Another Saturday Night ) |
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| Good Day |
[Mar. 13th, 2004|04:51 pm] |
Jared's taste in movies is horrible. If any of you are planning on seeing Secret Window, Johnny Depp's new film, I beg you to reconsider. It's predictable and lacks any form of suspense. When I realized it was based on a Stephen King novel, I expected more originality. It's a tired theme. Save your $5 :)
I got $19.72 back after selling some clothes through consignment. Expected money is great.
Tonight I need to get some stuff done. I need to read A Long Day's Journey Into Night, read Sophocles/Antigone and a few other short stories for my Intro to Lit class. There are a few short non-fiction stories I have to get done for Wednesday. After I talk to my mom later, I can start writing my next manuscript, and when my sources return my phone calls, I can begin working on my nude modeling trend story for the paper! I'm excited about the last one.
I'm going to go read a bit and then head to the PEIF. Szechuan noodles and left over blueberry angel food cake for dessert! Yumminess, indeed. |
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| Fruit Stickers |
[Mar. 9th, 2004|08:38 pm] |
http://www.nationalfinder.com/fruitlabels/
The world's first and oldest fruit label site. I'm going to start collecting fruit labels. Actually, I already kind of do. I only have like 20 pasted on the top of my laptop though. I suck. I need to be like this guy and catalog 3,000 fucking stickers. Then I'll be cool. Isn't the tweety sticker from New Zealand cute? It's an apple sticker :) |
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| hurray for no reason! |
[Mar. 9th, 2004|06:28 pm] |
i fell on the ice today and started laughing so hard i fell again. that was damn funny :)
i just got a cute note from jacob. i like him :) lol |
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[Mar. 8th, 2004|11:05 pm] |
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It's 11:05...I want Jacob to be home from Montreal :( Another 55 minutes I guess. I don't know that I can wait that long. Ther'es another law and order on to keep me company though. Fourth law and order in a row...*sigh* |
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| *sigh* |
[Mar. 8th, 2004|01:57 pm] |
I miss this boy. |
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| My Mother |
[Mar. 5th, 2004|08:26 pm] |
I'm so sick of her bullshit. She called me to tell me that she wanted to go and have dinner with her boyfriend in Appleton - a fucking hour away - after we planned on having dinner with my dad. So I said fine...but apparently I sounded too disappointed and so she freaked out and put a lot of guilt on me because she couldn't go. I NEVER FUCKING SAID SHE COULDN'T GO!!! I am so sick of this god damned 3-year-old bullshit. She procedes to hang up on me 75 times when I call her back to tell her she can go and it's not a big deal.
So now she's home and I came into the den...and she comes in and says, "Would you like to play scrabble?" "No." "What exactly did I do wrong?" All fucking pouting like I did something wrong.
GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Mar. 4th, 2004|10:57 am] |
My mouth is killing me from my surgery yesterday. Jacob is in Montreal and I just missed his phone call. My mom and I are fighting, and I want a god damned back massage from that new Aveda salon.
I guess I should be happy I don't have to go to school right now, and I'm not gorging myself on crappy food. |
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| "awwww" |
[Feb. 26th, 2004|09:42 pm] |
♥Thestatewearein and ♥Llweyllan | - Will adopt a superior child.
- Wish to listen to music together sweetly.
- Share a deep puddle of secrets.
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| I drove to Big Bay to pee on my foot... |
[Feb. 25th, 2004|03:31 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Aimee Mann:Save Me | ] |
This is true. I was bored, so I drove to Big Bay. I drove all the way down to the lighthouse and nearly died because the road is pure mud. I had to pee so bad and I was at least 20 minutes away from a gas station. So I got out of my car, walked around to the passenger side and hoisted myself up on the running boards. I proceeded to pee, but I had to go so bad that it came out really fast and got on my heel. This genius decided to wear sandals today. Pee on my heel and my pants is not fun.
But it's amusing. Urination is always amusing. |
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| Stolen from Jacob |
[Feb. 24th, 2004|04:51 pm] |
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I stole this from Jacob. Tell me what you think of me. Anonymous answers only please. I don't care if you have good or bad things to say, I just wanna know. And like I said, anonymity required. |
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| Build It Up With You |
[Feb. 23rd, 2004|03:53 pm] |
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| | Silverchair:Anthem for the Year 2000 | ] |
Despite the fact that I'm totally bogged down with nonsense work, today is working out better than expected. I listened to a good amount of Zeppelin and Pink Floyd, and now I'm listening to Silverchair. I realize they're not as worthy, but for some reason, this depressing song is really making me feel good. I think it's the lack of angst in my life. Sometimes I'm pissed off and I just don't have time to release the negative energy, so it eats at me. Angst-ridden music is good for a release.
On a happier, less angsty note, I got my lamp when I was home for the weekend, and the color in the room is so inviting. I love it in here now, and I actually like being at my desk. The fact that I can turn off that nasty flourescent light is exquisite.
Back to my education final (which is progressing well, actually!) |
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| Break for Bron-Y-Aur Stomp |
[Feb. 23rd, 2004|03:18 pm] |
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| | Led Zeppelin:Bron-Y-Aur Stomp | ] |
Being too busy for music is a tragedy...so I've stopped my Education Final for some good old Zeppelin. |
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| New Site |
[Feb. 10th, 2004|11:50 pm] |
Jacob made me a new website. You should check it out - yeah it's freaky and weight watchers related, but it's cute and girlie :)
Click HERE! |
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| Nice |
[Feb. 10th, 2004|12:42 pm] |
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It would be really nice if people did more than just sit on their computers and make noise all the fucking time. I would kill someone for one quiet day where people aren't drying there hair, listening to loud music, listening to loud television, and typing. Seriously, what the fuck does a person need to do for some god damned peace and quiet? I really don't think that is that much to ask for. |
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[Feb. 9th, 2004|02:11 pm] |
I feel like one of those dogs in the beggin' strips commercials. "Bacon Bacon Bacon!" "It's not bacon, it's beggin' strips."
Everything smells like bacon. :) |
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